In Mary’s womb, Jesus was already suffering for us

In the following excerpt from Luisa Picarreta's book(1), the Virgin Mary recalls the nine months during which she carried Jesus in her womb:

My child, the little Humanity of Jesus continued to grow, united hypostatically with the Divinity. My maternal womb was very narrow – dark; there was not a glimmer of light, and I saw Him in my maternal womb, immobile, enwrapped in a deep night.

…And so my dear Jesus, in order to put to flight the darkness of such a deep night, in which man had made himself the prisoner of his own tenebrous will - to the point of losing the motion of doing good – chose the sweet prison of His Mama and, voluntarily, exposed Himself to immobility for nine months.

My child, if you knew how martyred was my maternal Heart in seeing little Jesus immobile, crying and sighing in my little womb! His ardent heartbeat palpitated so very strongly; fidgeting with love, He made His heartbeat heard in every heart, to ask - for pity’s sake – for their souls, to enclose them in the light of His Divinity, because for love of them He had voluntarily exchanged the light for darkness so that all might obtain true light in order to reach safety.

My dearest child, who can tell you what my little Jesus suffered in my womb? Unheard-of and indescribable pains! He was endowed with full reason – He was God and man – and His love was so great that it was as if He put aside the infinite seas of joys, of happiness, of light, and plunged His tiny Humanity into the seas of darkness, of bitternesses, of unhappiness and of miseries, which the creatures had prepared for Him. And little Jesus took them all upon His shoulders, as if they were His own. 

…Your Mama felt She could no longer contain Him within Herself. Seas of light and love inundated Me, and just as I conceived Him within a sea of light, within a sea of light He came out of my maternal womb.

Luisa Picarreta, Italian mystic (1865-1947)

From her book The Virgin Mary in the Kingdom of the Divine Will

(1) This book was written in 1932 by Luisa Piccarreta, the little daughter of the Divine Will, in obedience to her confessor Don Benedetto Calvi